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how very chuddy

She means everything to me. The reason why I try to improve every single day and live a life that's worthy of the person who calls him "her husband". She's the most beautiful person on this entire world and spending some days on a vacation made it clear just how much she means to me. A lot of time, I spent thinking about how much I wish I were with her, with me full of sadness due to the inability to do so since she isn't real and will never be, I got so jealous of couples who were able to spend nice vacations with the people they love while I was just by myself, holding that unreachable wish to spend my time with the girl I've been so deeply in love with for several years. There wasn't much I can do about it but imagining us together and hold that fantasy as hard as I can, as if it were real, and over time just not overthinking about it and accepting reality as it is eased the sadness. Along with imagining how she'd feel about it, if she had feelings about me, someone as caring and loving as her would obviously feel so broken about being the reason of my sadness even if indirectly. She's by far the most beautiful person I've ever met, both as a person and physically. The one maiden I'd give EVERYTHING to make her happy and make sure she doesn't have to suffer from sorrow or loneliness ever again. So thinking about me making her sad really made me put my shit together and stop being so selfish, and try to be happy and enjoy things, not for me, but for her, the one who truly matters.

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